In December 2012, my fibula was taken out of my left leg to replace cancer-infected bone in my chin. This is all about my experiences with cancer and the growth that I have had because of it!
Thursday, December 7, 2023
Tuesday, November 7, 2023
Saturday, October 7, 2023
A Winning Attitude
One
of my biggest realizations with cancer is that having a bad attitude isn’t
going to help me in any way. In fact, the only thing that a bad attitude will
do is make things worse. I’ve come to realize that cancer “is what it is”, but
I’ll make the best with what I’ve been given. I’ve learned that it’s the
reaction to adversity that defines character. Although it’s cliché, there is
nothing false about the ideal that attitude is everything. For me, attitude is
the number one indicator of who we are, how we react to adversity, and what we
can become. A winning attitude will go a long way.
Thursday, September 7, 2023
I Choose God
Because of my experiences with cancer and student leadership, I know that people look at me constantly.
I have made an effort to post uplifting pictures, quotes, and status'.
Two years ago, I started a blog to write down all my cancer experiences and how they and the gospel have ultimately blessed my life. I've seen my blog reach many different parts of the country, as well as many countries around the world.
I have come to understand that technology is a strong aspect of life today; what I put on my Facebook page matters.
There is so much that can come from the internet, whether it be good or bad.
By posting uplifting material on my blog and social media pages, I
choose good; and by choosing good, I choose God.
Monday, August 7, 2023
Variety is the Spice of Life
SwissGear Scholarship Essay: What Makes a Great Backpack
By Erik Gray
People are not meant to do the same
thing day in and day out. No one that I know could work seven days a week for
years on end. I could not eat the same food every day. In fact, I could not
even eat the same food or more than one meal throughout the day. The bottom
line: we need variety. We go to school, we work, we have a family, we play
sports. What we do throughout the day is different, and that is the great truth
about us. Variety is the spice of life.
Just like our human nature to crave
variety, a good backpack is one that can be used for a variety of different
activities. I wake up in the morning and grab my backpack that has my school
supplies in it. After school, I empty it and put sports gear in it and head off
to basketball practice. On Saturday, I’ll empty it [again] of whatever was in
it and put in snacks, water bottles, and an extra pair of socks for my water
hike today. Next week, I’ll be using it to pack my clothes for my weekend trip
home. From laptop to sweaty basketball socks to hiking gear- the best backpack
can be used for anything, anytime.
Friday, July 7, 2023
True Character, Dignity & Optimism
In December 2009, when I was 15-years-old, I was diagnosed with a form of Stage IV cancer in my salivary glands called Mucoepidermoid Carcinoma.
It is not extremely life-threatening, but since that time, I have had ten surgeries on my neck ranging from biopsies to the replacement of the right half of my jaw, radiation twice, and I am currently on my second round of chemotherapy.
Throughout my cancer experiences, I served as a student body officer, graduated high school with 24 college credits, maintained good grades through my three semesters at Southern Utah University, and received an Associate’s degree.
At the end of my first semester, I faced the weight of an unexpected major surgery only a day after my last final. I have faced what many call “extreme adversity”, with what I believe as true character, dignity, and optimism.
These characteristics will help me through the rest of my life in all aspects as a college student, businessman, husband, father, and person.
I
wouldn’t trade the growth and lessons I’ve experienced for anything.
Wednesday, June 7, 2023
Sunday, May 7, 2023
AUGUST 2016 Last weekend in Logan before moving back home.
Sunday I went to church. Everyone in the ward wore dark blue ribbons. Mary Yohem had set it up... OH MY HECK I LOVE HER SO MUCH. I’ll talk about her in a minute. :) They knew I was moving home and that it was my last Sunday.
I got the opportunity to bless and serve the Sacrament that day. What a neat opportunity to be able to do it on my last Sunday. :]
After the third hour
lesson, Mary, Bronte, and a few others called me up, explained what was up with
me and gave me a nice shoutout, and presented me with a loving sign that a lot
of the ward had signed. :’) So touched. I remember back in the spring when I
was in the 31st ward (the ward I was in at Pine View), I knew I’d be
moving back in the fall and talked with the Bishop and there was an idea that I
could just keep my records in the ward for that summer, but I eventually
decided to just move my records to the 18th ward, where I would be
at with Yellow House and Darwin Avenue. Which was a good move. It would have
been weirder and harder and more awkward if I would’ve not been in the ward. AND
THE 18th WARD WAS SOOOOOOOOOO AWESOME AND SO INCREDIBLE. And living
on Darwin Avenue in general? Ahh. Seriously. Perfect place.
Friday, April 7, 2023
40 Days
Erik Gray's Journals/Computer files
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Houston University Branch
40 Days Closer to Christ
Welcome to the 40 Days Closer to Christ Program. We hope that this will aid in your personal
scripture study as you seek to come closer to your Savior. As you read and ponder each scripture, it
may help you to write down a few thoughts in a journal. |
Day 1
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 11:12-14 Thought for the day: “Character is the ability to carry
out a decision after the emotion of making the decision is past.” Scripture Study: 1 Nephi 1-10 Mark and Ponder: 1 Nephi 3:7 |
Day 2
Scriptural thought
for the day: D&C 50:29-30 Thought for the day: “Faith is a gift of God; it is the
fruitage of righteous living. It does
not come to us by our command but is the result of doing the will of our Heavenly
Father.” - George A. Smith Scripture Study: 1 Nephi 11-15 Mark and Ponder: 1 Nephi 15:34 |
Day 3
Scriptural thought for the day: Matthew 4:3-4 Thought for the day: “Ideals are like stars; you will not
succeed in touching them with your hands, but like the seafaring man on the
desert of waters, you chose them as your guide, and following them ,you reach
your destiny.” - Carl Schurtz Scripture Study: 1 Nephi 16-18 Mark and Ponder: 1 Nephi 19:23 |
Day 4
Scriptural thought for the day: Matthew 21:21 Thought for the day: “The best way to get rested is to
speed up. When we get ahead of our
work, we love it and it becomes easy.
When it gets ahead of us, we hate it and it becomes difficult. A winner at the end of a race is never
tired; he’s ready to go again. The
tired business man is the man whose business is not successful.” Scripture Study: 1 Nephi 19 – 2 Nephi 1 Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 2:11 |
Day 5
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 121:45-46 Thought for the day: “Faith is a divine gift to all men to
receive, if only their attitude and life will permit it’s reception.” Scripture Study: 2 Nephi 2-6 Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 2:25 |
Day 6
Scriptural thought for the day: Deuteronomy 30:19-20 Thought for the day: “Where one door shuts, another opens. We come to an end amd find a
beginning. Often we worry about
arriving at an end with too little faith in what follows.” - Don Quixote Scripture Study: 2 Nephi 7-11 Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 2:27 |
Day 7
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 76:9-10 Thought for the day: “To believe only possibilities is no
faith but mere philosophy” – Sir Thomas Brown Scripture Study: 2 Nephi 12-21 Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 9:28-29 Are you still on
target? Go back to the definition of
character on day 1 and recommit yourself as neeeded. |
Day 8
Scriptural thought for the day: 1 John 5:3 Thought for the day: “We live in deeds, not years; in
thoughts, not breaths; in feelings, not figures on a dial. We should count time by heart throbs. He most lives who thinks most – feels the
noblest – acts the best.” Scripture Study: 2 Nephi 22-33 Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 28:8-9 |
Day 9
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 39:20-23 Thought for the day: “The
success of our work is determined by the number of true converts we lead into
baptism.” Scripture Study: Jacob 1-5 Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 31:13 |
Day 10
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 82:10 Thought for the day: “My
faith is, when we have done all we can, then the lord is under obligation,
and will not disappoint the faithful; he will perform the rest.” - Brigham Young Scripture Study: Jacob 6-Omni Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 31:20 |
Day 11
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 18:18-19 Thought for the day: “The
faithful will exercise faith and pray always for all who are in reach of the
Lord, the God desire good to all..” - Brigham Young Scripture Study: Words of Mormon – Mosiah 3 Mark and Ponder: 2 Nephi 32:8-9 |
Challenge!
Go
the extra mile this week in your church assignments. Find out how the people you home or visit
teach are doing, and discover what you can do to make their lives
easier. Find a way to magnify your
other callings that you hadn’t considered before. |
Day 12
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 75:3,5 Thought for the day: “ The happiness of a man (or woman)
does not consist in the abscence but in the mastery of his passions.” - Alfred Lord Tennyson Scripture Study: Mosiah 4-9 Mark and Ponder: Jacon 2:18-19 |
Day 13
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 38:40-41 Thought for the day: “Successful people always do more
than they are expected to do.” Scripture Study: Mosiah 10-15 Mark and Ponder: Mosiah 2:17 |
Day 14
Scriptural thought for the day: 1 Corinthians 2:14-15 Thought for the day: “Seek not for greatness, but for
truth, and you will find both.” Scripture Study: Mosiah 16-22 Mark and Ponder: Mosiah 3:19 Do you have a
current temple recommend? Even
unendowed members can carry a limited use recommend. |
Day 15
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 50: 19-20 Thought for the day: “In our ante-mortal state, we walked
by sight. Then we knew God. We lived with him. He was our Father, our teacher. This earth life is intended as a place
where we might learn to walk just a little way by faith.” - Sterling W. Still Scripture Study: Mosiah 23-29 Mark and Ponder: Mosiah 4:27 |
Challenge!
Study
from the topical guide and other reference materials all you can on the
subject of CHARITY. Use the Book of
Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants and the Pearl of Great Price as primary
references. Find ways to be more charitable
to those in your life. |
Day 16
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 59: 9-11 Thought for the day: “ A great deal has been said about
giving your life for the work, not in death but in living day by day. It is so easy sometimes to die; it is hard
sometimes to live the principles for which we stand...I believe it is far
more important to live for our faith than to die for our faith.” - Mark E. Petersen Scripture Study: Alma 1-5 Mark and Ponder: Mosiah 4:30 |
Day 17
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 38:40-41 Thought for the day: “Implied faith and confidence in God
is for you and me to do everything we can to sustain and preserve ourselves;
and the community that works together, heart and hand, to accomplish this,
their efforts will be like the efforts of one man. – Brigham Young Scripture Study: Alma 6-10 Mark and Ponder: Alma 4:10 |
Day 18
Scriptural thought for the day: Romans 1:16 Thought for the day: “Are you full of faith? You can tell whether I am or not by looking
at me. You can tell whether the
Brethren who have been speaking to you are full of faith in the gospoel by
the look of their countenances. You
can see this if there is not a word spoken.” - Brigham Young Scripture Study: Alma 11-14 Mark and Ponder: Alma 5:14 |
Day 19
Scriptural thought for the day: Acts 5:32 Thought for the day: “Faith comes by hearing the words of
God, through the testimony of the servants of God; that testimony is always
atended by the Spirit of propecy and revelation.” - Joseph Smith Scripture Study: Alma 15-19 Mark and Ponder: Alma 5:46 |
Day 20
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 112:34 Thought for the day: “The degree of faith possessed by any
man depends not upon the extent of his knowledge, but on the certainty of his
knowledge, which leads its possesor to works corresponding to his knowledge.” - Joseph Smith Scripture Study: Alma 20-24 Mark and Ponder: Alma 11:40 |
Day 21
Scriptural thought for the day: 2 Corinthians 3:18 Thought for the day: “The assurance of resurrection gives
us the strength and perspective to endure the mortal challenges faced by each
of us and by those we love. Because of the resurrection, we know that these
mortal deficiencies are only temporary!” - Dallin H. Oaks Scripture Study: Alma 25-29 Mark and Ponder: Alma 11:43 |
Day 22
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 15:6 Thought for the day: “It is faith in the commands of the
Almighty, and our responsibility as his covenant children, the knowledge that
God lives and loves his children, and the conviction that it is our mission
to build and save men everywhere.” -Ezra Taft Benson Scripture Study: Alma 30-36 Mark and Ponder: Alma 30:60 |
Day 23
Scriptural thought for the day: Hebrews 11:1 Thought for the day: “Faith is a gift of God and comes to
each and all of us who serve God and supplicate Him for the guidance of His
Spirit. By doing our duty, faith
increases until it becomes perfect knowledge." -Heber J. Grant Scripture Study: Alma 37-41 Mark and Ponder: Alma 32:21 |
Day 24
Scriptural thought for the day: James 5:16 Thought for the day: “Satan wants us to be miserable as he
is. And he knows that we can only have that true happiness if we are washed
clean through faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, by deep and continuing
repentance.” - Henry B. Eyring Scripture Study: Alma 42-44 Mark and Ponder: Alma 34:32-34 |
Day 25
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 64:33 Thought for the day: “It is so likewise with evil things.
Small acts of dishonesty, small acts of an immoral nature, small outbursts of
anger can grow into great and terrible things.” - Gordon B. Hinckley Scripture Study: Alma 42-44 Mark and Ponder: Alma 37:6-7 |
Day 26
Scriptural thought for the day: James 1:5-6 Thought for the day: “The world wil turn aside for the
young man who knows where he is going.” Scripture Study: Alma 51-54 Mark and Ponder: Alma 37:35-37 |
Challenge!
Study
from the topical guide and other reference materials all you can on the
subject of FAITH. Use the Book of
Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants and the Pearl of Great Price as primary references. Ponder your own faith in light of what
you’ve discovered and seek to make it stronger. |
Day 27
Scriptural thought for the day: 2 Nephi 28: 21-22 Thought for the day: “Who are we going to believe in our
search for happiness and well-being? Will it be Satan, the author of all lies
and deceit, whose single objective is to destroy us? Or are we going to
believe a loving Heavenly Father, who is the source of all truth and
happiness, whose sole objective is rewarding us with His eternal love and
joy?” - Richard C. Edgley Scripture Study: Alma 55-58 Mark and Ponder: Alma 41:10-11 |
Day 28
Scriptural thought for the day: Matthew 23:25-26 Thought for the day: “We may compare favorably with those
who bear obvious signs of sin, because many of our foibles remain private and
hidden. Then, following condemnation of the designated villain, we see no
need to work on our own imperfections that seem to have diminished into
insignificance. - Mark D. Chamberlain Scripture Study: Alma 59-63 Mark and Ponder: Alma 60:23 |
Day 29
Scriptural thought for the day: Matthew 7:24-27 Thought for the day: “If our house is built upon a rock
with the brick and mortar of good works, it will withstand the storms and
perils of life and preserve us for an eternal inheritance hereafter. If it is
built upon the sands of evil with the rusty nails and rotting timber of
carnal things, it will be destroyed.” - Bruce R. McConkie Scripture Study: Helaman 1-9 Mark and Ponder: Helaman 5:12 |
Day 30
Scriptural thought for the day: Mosiah 24:15-16 Thought for the day: “Faith in God cannot of course be
other than personal. It must be yours;
it must be mine; and to be effective, must spring from the mind and
heart. Every man will do well to pray
with Emerson: O God make me willing to do thy will.” - David O. McKay Scripture Study: Helaman 10-14 Mark and Ponder: Helaman 10:4-5 |
Day 31
Scriptural thought for the day: Luke 24:39-40 Thought for the day: “We have the witness of the Book of
Mormon; we also have the declarations of the Prophet Joseph Smith from his
experience that both the Father and the Son have bodies of flesh and bones as
tangible as man’s.” - Richard D. Draper Scripture Study: Helaman 15 – 3 Nephi 4 Mark and Ponder: 3 Nephi 11:14-15 |
Day 32
Scriptural thought for the day: Matthew 5:25 Thought for the day: “Quarrel not at all. No man resolved
to make the most of himself can spare time for personal contention. … Better
give your path to a dog than be bitten by him.” - Abraham Lincoln Scripture Study: 3 Nephi 5-10 Mark and Ponder: 3 Nephi 11:29 |
Challenge!
Next
Fast Sunday strive to fast and pray for a spiritual experience that you may
not be living so as to be able to receive.
Pray for a change of heart and the ability to repent and forsake
whatever sin might be plagueing you. |
Day 33
Scriptural thought for the day: Matthew 5:48 Thought for the day: “We may not achieve our ideals in a
day, but like stars, they serve to guide us on our way.” Scripture Study: 3 Nephi 11-16 Mark and Ponder: 3 Nephi 12:48 |
Day 34
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 115:4 Thought for the day: “Surely every word that proceeds from
the mouth of the Lord is precious. So each word in this name must be
important—divinely designated for a reason.” - Russel M. Nelson Scripture Study: 3 Nephi 17-21 Mark and Ponder: 3 Nephi 27:8 |
Day 35
Scriptural thought for the day: 2 Corinthians 7:9-10 Thought for the day: “The gospel plan is the plan by which men are brought to a
fulness of joy. This is the first concept I wish to stress: The gospel
principles are the steps and guidelines that will help us find true happiness
and joy.” - Ezra Taft Benson Scripture Study: 3 Nephi 22-29 Mark and Ponder: Mormon 2:13-14 |
Day 36
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 12:8 Thought for the day: “How prudently most men sink into
nameless graves, while now and then a few forget themselves into immortality” - William Jennings Bryan Scripture Study: 4 Nephi – Mormon 8 Mark and Ponder: Ether 12:27 |
Day 37
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 101:38 Thought for the day: “Jesus will not be found by crusades
of men. Jesus will not be found in councils of debate. The formula for
finding Jesus has always been and ever will be the same—the earnest and
sincere prayer of a humble and pure heart.” - Thomas S. Monson Scripture Study: Mormon 9 – Ether 3 Mark and Ponder: Ether 12:41 |
Day 38
Scriptural thought for the day: 1 Corinthians 1:9-10 Thought for the day: “We all have an inner braking system
that will stop us before we follow Satan too far down the wrong road. It is
the still, small voice which is within us. But once we have succumbed, our
stopping mechanism becomes weak and ineffective.” - James E. Faust Scripture Study: Ether 4-10 Mark and Ponder: Moroni 7:16-17 |
Challenge!
Study
from the topical guide and other reference materials all you can on the
subject of CHANGE. Use the Book of
Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants and the Pearl of Great Price as primary
references. Have you received the
“mighty change” in yourself since you have been “lengthening your stride”? |
Day 39
Scriptural thought for the day: D&C 29:46-47 Thought for the day: “Little children shall be saved. They
are alive in Christ and shall have eternal life. For them the family unit
will continue, and the fulness of exaltation is theirs. No blessing shall be
withheld. They shall rise in immortal glory, grow to full maturity, and live
forever in the highest heaven of the celestial kingdom.” - Bruce R. McConkie Scripture Study: Ether 11-15 Mark and Ponder: Moroni 8:9-12 |
Day 40
Scriptural thought for the day: Matthew 7:7-8 Thought for the day: “All great ages have been ages of
belief. I mean when there was any
extraordinary power of performance, when great national movemens began, when
arts appeared, when heroes existed, when poems were made, the human soul was
in earnest.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson Scripture Study: Moroni 1-10 Mark and Ponder: Moroni 10:4-5 |
Final Challenge!
Look
back over the last 40 days. Have you
felt yourself come closer to Christ as you have read his teachings? Ponder
his love for you, and his role in your life.
As you do, remember all that he sacrificed for you in order for you to
return and be with him and our Father for eternity. |
Now
that you have completed this 40-day study program, we hope that you have
gained the knowledge and confidence necessary to share what you have learned
with someone who does not have the blessings of the Gospel in their life. Houston University Branch
Relief Society Presidency |
Tuesday, March 7, 2023
Erik Gray's journals
#journalgems
a youth speaker talk for Sacarament meeting
written by Erik, September 20, 2009 (3 months before cancer diagnosis)
“WHEREFORE, STAND YE IN HOLY PLACES, AND BE NOT MOVED”
Erik Gray. 9/20
The topic
I’ve been asked to speak on today is found in D&C 87:8, which reads: “Stand
ye in holy places, and be not moved.” When I first thought about this topic,
there are two parts in it. The first is to “stand ye in holy places.”
Sister
Sharon G. Larsen, Second Counselor in the Young Women General Presidency, had a
talk printed in the July 2002 Liahona, titled: “Standing in Holy Places”. I
would like to read the opening 4 paragraphs from her talk.
READ 1
Sometimes
when we are supposed by people, even our friends, who are making the wrong
choices, sometimes we have to stand alone. I’d like to read another excerpt
from Sister Larson’s talk
Being
15, my friend had her permit. After a track meet in St. George, she got to
drive with her dad being in the front seat. While coming home on the freeway,
she said that out of nowhere, a deer jumped onto the road, her dad helped her
swerve out of the way, but the black Expedition rolled. Except for a couple
scratches, bruises and some stitches, my friend and her parents were fine.
Now
how does this apply to being immovable? The answer, my friend said, is wearing
your seat belt! Your seat belt is holding your standards high, following them,
and being immovable against them. When temptation, or the crash, comes along,
your seat belt keeps you safe against the temptation. If she hadn’t been wearing
her seat belt, she could’ve been severely injured. If we don’t have standards
set, we can be easily moved.
I’d
like to close with my testimony.
Tuesday, February 7, 2023
6 years
Erik Gray's journals
Written by Erik Fall 2016
#journalgems
Honestly, I'm
prepared for anything to happen.
I'm sitting at
a crossroad of two pretty different roads.
In one
direction, my cancer's back.
I have to get
more surgeries, I have more to deal with,
and I have this
life up in Logan to worry about.
In the other
direction, everything is still clear
I get to
"go on with life"
There's a lot
of uncertainty for the moment,
but there are
some things I do know:
Jesus Christ
lives.
I will never be
alone in all that do.
Family can be
forever.
PEACE is
seriously shining through with this gospel.
Things happen
for a reason.
LOVE and MISS you Erik, my boy... 6 years in a few days....
Saturday, January 7, 2023
Birthday
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And it's given me
so many emotions- scared, frustrated, angry, positive, believing, trusting,
hoping. I've kind of been prepared for this outcome since July, but still---
it's here, and it's real.
So until next time,
keep running.