Monday, January 27, 2014

Focusing My Life

(Just a disclaimer, this post is longer than usual.)

I want to share a story about a man named John Tanner. I don’t know how many of you have heard of this man before… He lived around the time of Joseph Smith and the restoration of the church. To introduce the kind of man he is, he had a lot of children, was pretty wealthy, and highly respectable. Around the time of his conversion to the Church, he had been healed of a disease (causing him not to be able to walk) because of his faith.

"In 1834.... About the middle of December, he received an impression by dream or vision of the night, that he was needed and must go immediately to the Church in the West. He told his family of instructions he had received and forthwith made preparations for the journey.

"On his arrival [in Kirtland], he learned that at the time he received the impression, that he must move immediately to the body of the Church, the Prophet Joseph Smith and some of the other brethren met in prayer meeting and asked the Lord to send them a brother or some brethren with means to assist them in lifting the mortgage on the farm upon which the temple was then building. On the second day of his arrival in Kirtland, by invitation of the Prophet, John Tanner and his son Sidney met with the High Council, when he was informed that the mortgage on the temple block was about to be foreclosed. Thereupon, he loaned the Prophet $2,000.00 and took the Prophet's note at interest. With this amount, the block or farm was redeemed. Mr. Tanner also loaned to the Temple Committee, Hyrum Smith, Reynolds Cahoon and Jared Carter, $13,000.00 in merchandise at the cost price in New York, and took their note for the merchandise. This amount and that loaned the Prophet were not included in his liberal donations to the building of the temple. He also signed a note with the Prophet Joseph Smith and others for $30,000.00 of goods. His openheartedness was a very striking proof of his confidence in the Prophet and in the validity and importance of the work he had embraced. ...

"John Tanner set out on a journey 1,000 miles west to Farr West... Elder Tanner had a large family depending upon him and the long journey was before him. In April 1838 his equippage for the journey consisted of a turnpike cart, a borrowed wagon, one horse of his own, three borrowed ones, twenty dollars in cash and a keg of powder. With this meager equipment, he started with his family, eleven children in all, for Missouri. When the money and powder were gone, his family was under the necessity of appealing to the benevolence of inhabitants along the road for buttermilk and some other food to sustain life. He had two children, a son and a daughter, born to him in Kirtland. One of these, the daughter, died on this tedious journey. On his arrival in Missouri, he narrated, in conversation with a friend, his harships and privations. In conclusion, he philosophically said, "Well, if others have come up easier, they have not learned so much." This expression was characteristic of Elder Tanner's resignation to his sacrifices. He had a happy faculty of acknowledging the hand of God in all things. ...

"At the April conference in 1844, he was called on a mission to the Eastern States; before starting, he went to Nauvoo where he saw the Prophet Joseph. Meeting him on the street, Elder Tanner gave the Prophet Joseph his note of hand for the $2,000 loaned him in Kirtland, for the purpose of redeeming the temple land. The Prophet asked him what he wanted done with the note. Elder Tanner replied, 'Brother Joseph, you are welcome to it.' The Prophet then laid his hands heavily on Elder Tanner's shoulders, saying, 'God bless you, Father Tanner, your children shall never beg for bread.' "   ("The Genealogy of the Tanner Family", compiled by the Tanner family)


The promise that Joseph Smith made to John Tanner is pretty awesome, considering that John Tanner is my ancestor…. I think we figured my 7th great grandfather.

My mom and grandma tell of a story of one of John Tanner’s descendants, I believe it was John’s daughter or granddaughter. The woman and her family were basically out of food. The woman thought, What about Joseph Smith’s promise to John Tanner? Weren’t we promised we’d never beg for bread again? They were out of money, and as she was out of food, she went to clean out the cupboards. As she was cleaning out one of the cupboards, she found a dime- just enough to provide a loaf of bread for her family!

I opened with this story because John Tanner is an excellent example of living a Christ centered life. He gave tremendously to the church, faced adversity, and still did not give up, doing everything with a smile on his face.

What defines a Christ centered life and how exactly do we live it? Well, we come unto Christ, rejoice in Christ, and follow in His example, living as he did while He was on the earth. The first thing He taught in the Beatitudes are some of the basics:
  • ·         Faith in Jesus Christ
  • ·         Repentance
  • ·         Baptism
  • ·         Forgiveness of sins
  • ·         Receiving the Holy Ghost

And along with those basics come the Christ-like attributes (D&C 4:5)…
  • ·         Faith
  • ·         Virtue
  • ·         Knowledge
  • ·         Temperance
  • ·         Patience
  • ·         Brotherly Kindness
  • ·         Godliness
  • ·         Charity
  • ·         Humility
  • ·         Diligence

Living these basics and using these Christ-like attributes are only the first part. There is a handout from my stake presidency. It reads:

"As a Disciple of Jesus Christ, I will:
1. Pray daily
2. Study the scriptures daily
3. Attend all of my church meetings
4. Attend institute
5. Fulfill home or visiting teaching duties
6. Increase my temple service" 
(from the Cedar City Utah YSA 1st Stake)

Living a Christ centered life is the best decision you can make in this life. It is the best decision because it leads to other “best decisions”, such as serving a mission, finding your eternal companion, being sealed in the temple, and raising a family of your own.

As we live our life as our Heavenly Father would want us to live, we are guided toward the right decisions we need to make, the people whose lives we can touch, and the glorious message of the gospel we can share to others.

I’m not anywhere near perfect. I make mistakes just like everyone else on this earth. But when I have really tried my best to live a Christ centered life, it has made my life SUBSTANTIALLY better- no matter what has or is happening.

With everything I have been through involving cancer, I could have a reason to be mad, just like my 7th great grandfather could have. But first of all, what good would that do me to be mad? Second, this is part of my test. Heavenly Father knew that I could handle this trial and knew that if I endured righteously through it, I would be blessed tremendously.

And I have.

Life is good, guys. I’m in the right place I need to be. If I didn’t have cancer, I probably would be out in the mission field right now. And although that is a GOOD place to be, it’s not where I am needed at the moment.

In my eyes, the biggest blessing of living a Christ centered life is knowing that no matter where I go, what happens to me, or who I come into contact with, it’s for a reason. And a good reason. Maybe not physically good, as my jaw is evidence for that, but spiritually? Holy cow. J
It has taught me what really is important in this life. And that is being surrounded by loved ones… family, friends, and our big brother, the one who gave us the ultimate gift of the Atonement.

Trying to live a Christ centered life has been the best decision I've ever made because I want to talk with my Heavenly Father in prayer.
I want to read from the scriptures.
I want to feel the Holy Ghost.
I want to make the right decisions in life.
I want to share the gospel, I want others to feel the love of our Savior.

And most importantly, I want to return to our Father in Heaven again, and the only way I can do that is through living a Christ centered life.


Keep running!



Monday, January 20, 2014

Dental Implants, Phase Three

I am one step closer to my new teeth!

I never thought I'd have to say that.



On Tuesday, we headed up once again to Dr. Egbert's office. The procedure took about an hour, and like last time, I was numb but wide awake.

Dr. Egbert cut open some of my tissue and exposed the posts. He put in what he called "caps" into the four posts that were underneath my tissue. He stitched it back up. I don't have my teeth yet, but I have four more posts stick out of the tissue. The purpose of this procedure is to give the tissue a chance to heal around where the posts will be. The hope is that when the tissue is completely healed, he can unscrew these caps, and when it is time to put in my teeth, he won't have to cut any more tissue to get them to screw in.

I don't have gold teeth, but I do have gold and silver in my mouth now.

Once again, I never thought I'd have to say that!


Have you ever ate food while you are wearing earbuds? You can listen and "feel" yourself chewing, it sounds like its in the middle of your head. When the doctor cut through the tissue in my mouth, I couldn't feel it, but I could feel/hear it. Does that make sense? That was the hardest part of the surgery. I went in to it telling myself that it might be hard being awake, but I can do hard things. I know this because 1, I've done harder things; and 2, the Lord won't allow me to go through something I can't handle.





But, in all seriousness:



And most importantly:


You might be facing something hard. You might even be thinking about it at this exact moment. And here's what I'm telling you. YOU CAN DO IT!

This small surgery was a little tough, but I made it through. And I am physically and emotionally a better person for it. 2 Nephi 2:2 says: "...thou knowest the greatness of God; and he shall consecrate thine afflictions for thy gain." I've had afflictions. I've had some big afflictions. It comforts me to know that ultimately, it blesses me. It's my gain spiritually, emotionally, socially, and even physically.

Keep running!



Monday, January 13, 2014

YOU Are Loved!

They say that when you prepare and teach a lesson, you learn more than the people you are teaching. I am here to tell you that that could not be more true. Just recently, I taught about our Father in Heaven. When I first saw the topic, I thought, Okay, this will be easy. I've been taught about Heavenly Father since I could remember!

Well, come to find out, after reading the lesson, my eyes have been enlightened. I prepared my lesson, and changed my thinking: Wow! I am so EXCITED to teach this lesson. It's got some good stuff in here. Excited to teach? Yes, the gospel changes people.

In this lesson, it talked about a scripture, found in Moses (a book in the Pearl of Great Price, one of what is called the "Standard Works"). The scripture is as quoted:


And the Lord said to Moses:

"For behold there are many worlds that have passed away by the word of my power. And there are many that now stand, and innumerable are they unto man, but all things are numbered unto me, for they are mine and I know them."

“And it came to pass that Moses spake unto the Lord, saying: Be merciful unto thy servant, O God, and tell me concerning this earth and the inhabitants thereof, and also the heavens, and then thy servant will be content.

“And the Lord God spake unto Moses, saying: The heavens, they are many, and they cannot be numbered unto man; but they are numbered unto me, for they are mine." (Moses 1:35-37, quoted for emphasis)


It is a testimony to me that as God has created things that CANNOT BE NUMBERED unto man (think about it, that's a ton of stuff!), He is talking face to face with Moses.
Man is God's greatest creation.

Doesn't that just make you smile? You are worth more in Heavenly Father's eyes than any of the things He's created. There are many planets, stars, galaxies; but there is only one YOU.

And YOU are loved!


God is interested in my life, your life... all of our lives. He is interested in who I meet, who I'm in contact with, and whose lives I can bless with my spirit.

He weeps when I make the wrong choices. He is our eternal Father, literally, and like an earthly Father, He knows that He can't make us do what is best for us. We have our agency, and it is our choice, good or bad. He hopes we know enough to make the right decision, and He is happy when we do make the right decision.



I'm not a father, and won't be for quite some time, but I know that one of greatest blessings of a father is seeing his children happy, making the right choices, and being the best they can be. To you fathers out there, am I right?

Now to all out there who feel alone, unloved, or like no one cares.... I can tell you that there is someone who ALWAYS cares. Your Father in Heaven loves you, He is interested in you, and He wants you to be happy. He wants you to be the best you can be, and wants you to grow in both knowledge and spirit. His love is everlasting. I know that. I hope you do, too!


Keep running!



Monday, January 6, 2014

Milestones

Tomorrow is a pretty big milestone. Want a hint?


























ITS

MY


20TH

BIRTHDAY!!!!


For me, being an almost-20-year-old seems like a pretty good accomplishment. For those readers out there who are youthfully challenged, you might not think so. I may just be some young kid. And just for you... I saw this picture and thought it was super funny.





But honestly, think about it. The age you are right now? That's a milestone. No matter if you are 50, 34, 80, or 11. Life is full of milestones, some good and some bad. We should celebrate the good and respect the bad.


My milestones:
  • 4 years ago I was diagnosed with cancer
  • A year and a half ago I graduated high school
  • When I
    • walked for the first time
    • rode a bike for the first time
    • talked for the first time
    • traveled across the country without Mom and Dad
    • went outside the United States
    • moved out on my own
In the eyes of someone whose perspective has changed due to cancer as a teenager: EVERY DAY is a milestone. Every day that I open up my eyes and look out of my window at the sunny world, it's an accomplishment. Every time I show up to work and make a guest's stay at the hotel that much better, it's worth it.

In the eyes of someone who is writing a blog post that you are currently reading, I say to you: Celebrate your life. It's full of milestones and full of good days! Your life is full of accomplishments, so celebrate good times! (Come on!)

Keep running!