I'm doing okay, overall. I find myself tired usually all day long.
I wake up in the mornings any time between 9 and 11 a.m., and the mornings are pretty hard. When I get out of bed, my body is pretty sore- especially my chest/shoulder area.
When I get out of bed, I walk to into the family room and sit on the couch. My mom makes me breakfast- usually waffles.
After breakfast, I either lay down on the couch and keep watching TV, or else I jump in the warm bath and get ready for the day. Either way, I'm cold for the rest of the day. Yet, if I wrap up in a huge blanket, I start sweating way bad. I have to have a thin blanket, enough to keep me warm, but not too much that I'm drenching myself in sweat.
Eating is alright- I have a much smaller appetite. If I can get a small-to-decent sized plate of food down, I consider it a success. Night time, I take a pain pill and go to bed. No matter how many blankets I have, I sweat. My pillow is west, some of my sheets are wet. It's gross, but whatev. It's life..... IMMUNO SIDE-EFFECTS SUCK. (But not as much as chemo side-effects)
Speaking of Immunotherapy, it's supposed to make me feel like I'm fighting off a flu or cold or something- and aint that the truth! I'm sweaty, I get hot and then cold really easily, and I have a cough. It affects how much I eat, and I'm tired all the time, but.... again, whatever. If that's what I've got to deal with, so be it.
BUT let me fill you in that it's not all peaches and cream here... there are so many times that I'm angry, or frustrated, or grumpy, or tired, and not "positive every second." You just don't see those emotions because you don't live here! The key though.... recognize those moments, let them happen, and then let them pass. Don't let these sad emotions overtake you and control a portion of you. Let yourself be happy more often than you let yourself be sad or angry. Life is good for a whole lot more reasons than life is bad.
I had the incredible opportunity to speak in a local ward last week. I gave a fireside about "courage through trials" and that you can't let your trials define you. I think it went very well- the youth enjoyed it. I have always wanted to give a fireside. It's my dream to be a motivational speaker- so step one: DONE.
I have the opportunity again this week to speak in a devotional. The two LDS Young Single Adult (YSA) stakes hold a devotional every Sunday night- usually enough people come to fill the chapel and gym, so it's going to be huge! I get to speak at this Sunday's devotional (Nov 6) at 6 p.m. If you're in town- come! 61 N 900 W, Cedar City.
Well, that's all for today. Keep running.
