Gotta Milk It!

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written in December 2016

AUGUST: JUST MOVED BACK HOME FROM LOGAN TO CEDAR

Okay. So August 1^st… easy enough day to remember. I had my port surgery that morning, all my stuff was packed in LaFawnDuh the Honda. Dad drove me home in the truck while Mom drove my car with all my stuff. We stopped at the Payson Temple to get up for a minute and stretch on our way home. But then we got home. And the best part about this cancer stuff and my situation is that I didn’t have to unpack any of my stuff. ;) Hehehe I just sat down and watched them unload. The week before I had told Jenna D and Isabel T about this and that my parents would be unloading everything, and they told me to milk it and film it. So I did. I filmed them bringing in a box and I said, “Right there, packmule.” GOTTA MILK IT. WHO WOULD I BE IF I DIDN’T MILK THE CANCER CARD OR HAVE SOME FUN ALONG THE WAY!?!? Not Erik, for sure. ;) Hehehe. But I really really did appreciate having them there. That’s what I’ve noticed since day one of cancer seven years ago…. FAMILY IS EVERYTHING and I would be so lost or suck or sad or not… without my family.

It's in the past

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Tuesday, August 19th, 2014
Temple Service Mission

P-day! I got all my laundry done, my room clean (for the most part), and even helped watch Camden and Easton this morning. Talk about a busy day. I know that I'm not ready for kids right now. It's too exhausting. 

I listened to a podcast today, where William Joseph was interviewed.  He is a really amazing piano player.  In part of the interview he talked about being offered the chance to write a music score for part of a show.  It didn't name what the show was.  He watched one of the aired episodes and saw that it was not a good show at all.  He declined the offer.  

That only made me think of the fact that I've watched 'How I Met Your Mother'.  It's funny, but it is so bad.  I love the story line. I constantly bragged about it.  I shouldn't have.  I shouldn't have been so public about a show that is so against my morals.  If I was perfect, I would have never watched that entire series anyway.  But am I perfect? No. No one on this earth is, except Christ.  thankfully, the atonement is really real. I can repent and make up for my sins. Including allowing an environment to stay where spirit is not welcome.  It's in the past.  The only thing I can do is move forward, from any sin.  How great is this gospel?!

Saying Goodbye

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End of his 1 year mission service at the St. George Temple

Saturday, July 18, 2015
We took some pictures of our shift all together.  I said goodbye to lots of people today - in fact, all week.  It was sad to say goodbye to the ladies in the laundry. Tamara and I always get along good.  Janice, kinda stern, gave me a nice goodbye, too. She is actually very sweet.  It made me regret not feeling very happy and loving towards her at times, but I did my best and did show her lots of love and I'm glad I did.

It was bittersweet walking out of the temple today.  On my drive home, I listened to some Hymns, and it got me teary!  Especially "Ye elders Of Israel".  I'm excited for new adventures, but really extremely sad that my temple service mission is just about over.  I don't want to stop serving! But all missionaries feel like that.  It means I loved my mission and loved serving the Lord in that aspect.